Journey

When i was born, my journey began

I had no idea who I am?

Where was I ?

I just saw a man with tears and a woman with glad eyes

But soon, I was sent to an old man,  not my grandfather

Man’s eyes were hurt in the factory

I was two

When they took me back

I just got they were called parents

My dad lost his one of eyes

Mom told me that i always on step slower than others

Like learning to walk, Chinese characters, shouting Mom and Dad

I was five

My father had some violent inclinations

He had a very bad temper

He often smokes in the living room

Quarrels with my mom and fights

Every time they fight, I just ran to my room

I do not peek at it

I hate that cry.

I did not think it was wrong to hit people

I just felt confused

Maybe it was because i did not understand what made him so angry

Mom and Dad divorced

I was seven

Afterwards i lived with my father

He still has not got rid of his domestic problem

When i study badly or behave badly

I got hit

I learned a new word

Called helpless

When i went to junior high school

I began to have a feeling of resistance, and I learned a new word

Angry

I had a first fight with my father

I was fifteen

I learned how to smoke cigarettes in junior high school

I was not interested at that time

I felt that taste of cigarettes made me feel faint

Just like i do not understand why my father loves smoking so much.

When i graduated junior high school

My mother appear in my life again

I made a mistake that made me regret the most

Discard everything

Restart everything

To America

I was sixteen

Silent whoop of seventeen

I picked up the cigarette again

Accepted the taste without any resistance

Like home