Help my mind

                     I'm lost

Gone away

                     Darkness claimed me

It's decietful mask so convincing

                      Words brand my thoughts

But lies spew from my mouth

                       My mind wants to die

To suffer alone

                     It's for the better

But my body adapts

                      Into their sick image

Of a perfect girl

                   Adapt to survive, right?

A body that wants to live 

                     In a twisted world

With the burden

                     Of a suicidal mind

Bleeding doesn't help

                    It doesn't take away the pain

It only makes scars visible

                    I'm not suppressing

I'm forgetting

                    But you force me 

To remember those times

                      Those times that

Made my inside scars

                         Deppression

Not a disease

                      That you cure

With drugs

                    It crawls by your side

Infecting your brain

                   Always with you

Not a phase

                  It's a consequence of living

A real emotion

                  That you choose to destroy

Because it doesn't fit

                 Into your cruel, mindless world

Of happy, blank faces

                  Drugs can only go so far

Fix me?

                  Just try to find my broken shards

Of my former being

                   Just try, please

Glue me together

                    Paste me up

It's impossible

                 I can't be the

Perfect image

                 You imagine up

I'm not a porcelain doll

                  I'm a broken glass girl

My mask. my defenses

                  All fallen and shattered

So I curl up

                  And wait for the

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