My hands shake uncontrollably.

I cant write
tie my shoelaces
apply makeup
or get my ice cream properly

Having a part of your body
that disrespects the commands of your mind
and goes so far as to violently trembling when holding hot tea
giving their owner 1st degree burns
is at times disconcerting

I have the scar
would you like to clasp my hand still to see it?

The constant battle of dominance with my hands is futile
they always win

why even try?

I hate writing notes
everyone else on the planet
has gorgeous handwriting
but I am stuck with something resembling sanskrit

Why are my hands trying to sabotage me
and my lineage

My children
will have these degenerate hands with mischievous fingers
My children
won't be able to write properly
My children
will be plagued by the ever-present “ stop being nervous”

I am not nervous

I, Isabella Perez, have an essential tremor

Checkmate