"don't ever leave me"

I cry as he pushes me further

into the car

that drives away

"why did we leave mommy?"

you're the thread

holding together the fabric

that is the childhood

he stole from me

you put me back together

when I fall apart

and shatter

he says it's your fault

that we don't see you anymore

everything wrong with his life

is still somehow

your fault

he took me away from you

and each day that passes

without you in it

makes my anger towards him

become rooted further in me

when can I tell him

to go f**k himself

the way he f***** us

he can't give us

an extra minute

to say goodbye

even though those goodbyes

hurt the most

because I know

I'll see you again

it just won't

be soon enough

will I ever see you again?

that's it.

my biggest fear

that in all of those

hours

days

weeks

months

that we're apart

because of him

something will happen

and I'll lose you

the love of my life

if I did

I think I would just

die.