I feel her lips on my cheek,  

The lingering feeling of what used to be

Tickling my skin like soft feathers.

I resist the need to give into her embrace.

Her eyes hold guilt.

I imagine it like wildfire spreading throughout her body

Burning every cell and muscle,

Lighting it up with the fiery flames of shame

Her head hangs down,

Shoulders sunken and defeated

Surrounded by tension so thick

That you could cut it with a knife.

I feel it all around me,

Engulfing me in its presence.

The anticipation of what she would say is killing me.

The want, no, the need to hear

What her excuse would be this time.

The sight tore me up inside,

My intestines reaching up towards my heart

And squeezing it to death.

I know that what she said wouldn’t matter,

That I would eat it up with a specific type of hunger.

The one that leaves me rabid and furious,

So blinded by emotions that everything I see is murky,

Twisting what's really in front of me.

It’s impossible for me to see her for what the monster she is,

She’s surrounded by impenetrable glamours,

Transforming her into the innocent creature I adore.

The one who could do no wrong.

Her mouth spills beautiful melodies spoken in tongues

A voice so alluring that God himself

Fell on his knees at one word,

Eagerly awaiting what she had to say.

The word cheater rings through my head multiple times

On endless repeat,

Blocked by her many apologies.