I don’t know what to do.

When I am with him I am happy

My heart is light,

It’s what I want.

I’m happy,  life is perfect

But then it isn’t and we fight.

He gets angry over some little thing

And brags that he’s carefree,

And I begin to wonder

If I am letting him change me.

Then suddenly there’s her—

She comes in my mind again.

And I think of peace, adventure, joy.

Love, swimming and friends.

I think of how it feels when she is wrapped up in my arms

And how much it hurts to keep her

At a distance to cause no harm.

But she lives far, lives don’t align

Who knows what we would be...

I do love him but I still love her

What is wrong with me.