We were inseparable

We were like a harp and its player, beautiful and in sync

We were pulsing

Every breath we took it was a perfect match

It seemed to be like a never ending cycle of happiness and purity

But I guess the cliche opposites attract, really isn’t true

We really were opposites

And we really did not attract

The longer we, the longer I fought the weaker everything became

It felt like I was trapped inside of a prison cell

One small window to catch my breath and to see the sunlight

Only when there was sunlight

As soon as night crept, the sliver of hope was ripped away

I felt captive to your bulls***

Chained to the wall

My wrists were on fire by how tight the restraints were

But I still fought

I needed that sunlight

The millisecond of air that would fuel me

You wouldn’t give it to me though

The fights were on a constant loop, like the record player I bought you on your 20th birthday

You would always ask me “Are you done yet?”

Like everything was my fault

You would always make me apologize for the littlest things that weren’t caused by me

You were like a parasite that I grasped on to just to get a sense of happiness

There was no cure

I didn’t, and still don’t know how to get you out of my system

But I love you…

I love you like the happy little girl we saw at the toy store on our anniversary

I love you as if there is nothing else to love

I love you because I think you can change

But you can’t change

You can’t stand the thought to release me

I’m dying and you can’t see it

I need that light

I need oxygen

All you can provide is darkness and fire

But I love you

My love bug

My big bear

My best friend

Please

Let me go