I sit here in the disaster

I call a life

I see my family ripping apart

From no more grandparents

To no more daddy

Mommy tires to make me

Keep up appearances

My older brother

Stays as a little kid

Playing his silly little video games

While mommy cooks his food for him

Mommy yells at me

Daddy still comes and keeps me safe

I can’t be there anymore

I fall asleep

Where anything is possible

Me living my best life

No ties to the ground

I can finally fly free

Hope is all around me

Like a warm blanket

I snap awake

From yelling

“Why aren’t you cutting grass outside”

Mom finds a way to mess with my happiness

Ripping every strand of happiness out of me

Peeling every layer of hope off my skin

Until I am naked and afraid

I snap wide awake

I am awake from the nightmare