What we have is not perfect;
we scarcely speak
a few words now and then
when my defense is weak.

You see, I hold myself back
when I want to speak.
I dream of conversations
that never come to be.

I tell myself next time
I will open up and speak
but when the time comes,
I don’t have the confidence I need.

I’ve tried, trust me.
It’s just when I go to speak,
I have this overwhelming fear
that you will ignore me.

As if there is someone else
you would rather hear speak,
someone you actually like
and would not critique.

This is the reason
why we do not speak
because there might be rejection
and my heart is too weak.