That girl is constantly in a state of despair

as she pretends to keep everything light,

but just ends up more distant.

She feels the need to always be intoxicated.

The drinks continuousl sparkle

in the light that keeps her mind silent.

To her, the people turn to black, and its silent.

She hopes, but it just becomes despair

to the heart that continues to sparkle 

and speak as though her world is full of light,

even when it sees the edge through an intoxicated

haze. Moving her to stay distant.

Keeping her words as thoughts makes her distant

from the people she cares about. The silent

space between them like an intoxicated

high, making her friends feel her despair.

Her friends try to make her laugh and see the light

like they do, bright and with sparkle.

Her green eyes they see the world and sparkle

with the hope she feels as she becomes less distant.

Shes seeing it, off in the distance the shining light,

but her mind is still keeping her words silent.

She feels it. In the back of her mind. The despair

creeping back inside until she is once again intoxicated.

She wishes to rid herself of this intoxicated

shell so she can continue to shine and sparkle

as she did before. Then one day the despair

floats away, the space between her and reality less distant,

she speaks and she is no longer silent

and suppressed. She finally walked into the light.

She feels its warmth and knows the light

is her home. She no longer feels the need to be intoxicated

she feels freedom on her skin. She forgets shes no longer silent

and then she speaks, and it sounds like the sparkle

she always believed in. She moves closer and the distant

girl is no more. She asks herself, "What is despair?"

Silent Despair

Distant Light

Intoxicated Sparkle