1. There is a crack in the bathroom door from where your fist narrowly missed my head last night. This morning you told me you loved me too much to let me walk away.

2. Roses are not nearly as beautiful when you grab them by the thorns. Maybe that is why you only tell me I am beautiful after you have touched me.

3. I have cried six times in the last twenty-four hours and the bathroom mirror is still fogged from an hour long shower in which I tried to burn your touch off my skin.

4. My lips are bloody and dry from trying to rip off all the kisses you left on them, but I can never rip off the memories.

5. You said my hands didn't feel right wrapped in yours, yet you still grab me and kiss me. Do my lips feel wrong as well?

6. One day I am going to walk into the fog and you are going to follow me and I am finally going to say no to something toxic. Or maybe I will let your hands coil around my neck once again.

7. The taste of love clogs my throat at three a.m. in my best friends basement. But then again, I could be confusing cheap liqueur and love, those tastes are so tightly wound together for you.

8. Once upon a time I let my blood turn the bubble bath a frothy shade of red. You screamed at me for staining your white towels.

9. The last time I hurt myself you embraced me so tightly that my bones popped against you and insisted that you needed me. I'm pretty sure you just needed to feel a body against yours.

10. When I was lost in the woods with no shoes and a ripped dress I tried to call you to come pick me up. You didn't answer the phone.

11. I poured my heart out to you and in return I got bruises trailing my body like footprints and blood dropping to the tile floor of the kitchen at one a.m.

12. The last time I loved someone they told me I was too young to understand what love was but now I feel too old to ever be loved by anyone but you. Maybe that is why I refuse to walk away.

13. Did you know that in seven years, every cell of your body will have replaced itself from the one you have now. You will have never touched my body in seven years time, yet I still scrape at my skin as if my nails can dig out the lies you have planted inside me.

14. You once bit down on my lip so hard that I bled against yours and you told me the taste of copper suited me well. I suppose the color does as well, considering how many times you have made me bear it.

15. On our fourth date I told you I cry when people yell or swear at me. You tested it out and snickered under your breathe when I cried over an untouched plate of fries.

16. Maybe if I would stop writing your name on the back of napkins and start carving it into my skin, you would remember me more often.

17. A little girl once stood shivering next to me at the bus stop. I gave her my scarf. She asked why I had swollen handprints on my neck.

18. I woke up at three a.m. to the faint sound of another girl's moans in the living room. The next morning, I discovered you had removed every picture of me from the walls for the night.

19. When you shoved me against the kitchen table three nights ago, I began to cry. You called me an attention w**** and kissed away my tears.

20. There is a crack in the bathroom door from where your fist narrowly missed my head last night. Tonight I will fill it in, paint it over, and we will pretend it never happened.