It's always there

And I can't hide

No matter how hard I try.

It's always there. 

It's a part of me,

It's who I am.

It's in my bone,

It's everywhere.

It keeps me up at night

It keeps me from taking flight.

It holds me down,

It makes me frown,

But, most of all, it leaves me scared.

Scared of people,

Scared of places,

Scared of looking at anyone's faced,

Scared of attention,

Scared of my fate.

Would it just hurry up? 

It's getting late.

It makes me crazy,

because it's like I feel it in my blood.

The anxiety,

waiting to turn me into a drone. 

It controls me,

It controls my actions. 

It controls my thoughts, 

It controls my reactions. 

It's like a constant voice in my head. 

You wouldn't think it would be that bad.

You see, it's like the devil is inside of me.

And it's driving me mad.

I'm a nervous wreck,

I'm an overthinker.

I'm paranoid beyond belief. 

I'm tentative,

I'm painfully shy.

But once I know you,

I'm sure I'll be fine.

I may be scared of people,

I may be scared of places. 

I may even be scared of looking at people's faces.

But, I'm a wallflower-

you'll see. 

I'll blossom on my own time

And then I'll shine.

As bright as the stars against an endless sky.

I have anxiety.

And today it controls me.

But tomorrow's a new day.

Today, anxiety will be who I am.

But tomorrow, tomorrow I'll be me.