January 3, 2009
The smile you see upon my face
and the friends and the words and the place
are perfect and happy.
Everyone loves.
Everyone lives.
No one knows.
No one knows that this smile is a pretense.
It crept upon me
and I don’t know how to make it go away.
I’m dying inside.
Not another day,
with those cries and lies
that I know are hidden behind our masks.
There are so many secret conflicts
with ourselves and everyone around us.
The smiles
are pretty,
all burdened
with pity.
Not another moment of these lies,
these troubles in disguise.
Disguise your problems, baby.
Maybe they’ll go away.
Maybe they’ll suffocate in the depths or your mind.
Maybe they’ll drown in the tears of your heart.
Maybe they’ll burn in the fires of your soul.
Maybe they’ll just
Because maybe I love you,
and maybe you love me,
and maybe this is all for nothing,
and maybe we’re just a bunch of kids,
and maybe we’re dying to know what love is.
I want to know what love is.
Will you be my love?
And can I be yours?
what is this we’re fighting for?
We are
fighting for lies,
fighting for love,
fighting for another chance,
another chance to make our days bright,
another chance to make our lives right.
This will never be right.
We will never be alright.
There’s always something
or someone.
She’s doing this with him;
He said that about her.
What a life.
What a world.
Words are weapons and we wield them without care.
We slit the wrists with knives
as easily as we slit the throats with words.
Take a stab at me, baby.
I dare you.
I’m here waiting for you
with open arms and open eyes,
smile on my face and my heart in its place.
I’d take it all for you.
I’m taking it all for you.
Lay it all on me.
It’s all on me.
My smile is on
so nothing is wrong.
Nothing can be wrong with her.
She’s the sunshiny hippie lover
who dances through life with the flowers in her hair
and love at her side.
Nothing can be wrong with her.
something’s wrong with me,
because I want him to love me
and I want him to understand
and I want to be cool with her
and I want my boy to be a man
and I want my friends to love themselves
and I want everyone to know
and I want my tears to come bravely
and I want my lies to show.
You think we don’t know life
or problems.
We’re just a bunch of kids.
But that’s exactly our problem.
We’re just a bunch of kids
and we don’t know what to do about it

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KylieK This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
May 23, 2015 at 4:35 pm
Oh, God. I just love this.
MissEmilyDickinson This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 6, 2014 at 4:12 pm
Wow. This is just ... powerful and full of depth. I can connect to it, a lot. This is just amazing and wonderful and phenomenal.  I hope more of your writing is coming; you are amazing. I love your poem, a lot. Thank you so, so much for sharing this. :)
Groundlevelup said...
Mar. 20, 2014 at 11:25 am
i like the point of view you did in this poem. its full of expression . keep it up
FrenchHippie said...
Dec. 30, 2011 at 5:39 pm
Wow. This is so amazing. I feel that way alot, like you feel like you're just putting on a perfect facade and you wish someone would see. and also I like how you said that we're just kids or whatever. Sometimes I feel like we understand way more than other people realize and we really have seen more than others think. Okay, sorry for that super long comment, but I pretty much love this poem. The End :)
publicdomain said...
Dec. 18, 2011 at 9:53 am
Good job. Great writing keep it up.
taytaynichole said...
Nov. 29, 2011 at 4:10 pm
i have read all your poetry and i think you are an AMAZING writer! this is one of my favorites along with Jerk <3 your an inspiration and i hope to read more:)
Cassidy D. said...
Nov. 26, 2011 at 11:58 am
I wrote something sort of like this...just not nearly as beautifully written. Love it
homes14 said...
Apr. 12, 2011 at 5:57 pm
love it! its so true!
l.iney said...
Mar. 11, 2011 at 2:40 pm

This is so amazing and the feeling you put into it is very strong as you read it.

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Lonleydandy said...
Mar. 7, 2011 at 7:25 pm




Enough said.

shy-writer said...
Jan. 3, 2011 at 7:10 pm
Wow...This poem describes, like exactly how I feel about everything right now...THIS IS AWESOME!!! :0
xBaByGiRrL22x said...
Nov. 9, 2010 at 9:34 pm
uhh....WOWW. this is incredible. i couldnt stop readingg. youve got talent. plzz keep writingg!! ;D
Swrilingpaint This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 27, 2010 at 1:31 pm
well um... WOW! reading this brings back alot of pain from my life. and some that i curently have. but thank you. im glad that someone else has the courage to tell people how it is. its good to know im not alone in the fight for teen rights!
MercedesXO said...
Jul. 8, 2010 at 12:44 am

i recognize your talent immediately and love the way you choose to create and direct this poem. I love the way it contradicts life and the struggles we go through as not only kids/teens..but people. Also, that you mention one of the biggest problems IS that we are "just kids". Some thrown about phrase trying to excuse our thoughts and intentions as kids/teens. That we can not fall in love, we can not BE in love..but we can. And you portray that. Nice work:) I just recently joined and my ... (more »)

MercedesXO replied...
Jul. 8, 2010 at 12:48 am
I wanted to add this as a favorite..except that I dont know how. lol. I'm completely helpless with technology sometimes.
Jaycie said...
May 19, 2010 at 2:05 pm
My favorite :) your an amazing writter..
MusicInMyHeart<3 said...
May 10, 2010 at 7:35 pm
this is so amazing. i love the repetition and randomness of it all and the diction you used is perfect too. i feel like even though it seems kind of like a stream of consciousness, it all makes perfect sense and flows so well. this is really, really great.
ChowD This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 15, 2010 at 2:37 pm
i love this. you have inspired me!
Whisperer said...
Apr. 11, 2010 at 1:38 pm
thisi sreally cool. it's detail and it's amazing and i LOVE it! it explains so much and relates and says almost exactly what i think every day. thank you for this. this is really amazing :)
iliketac0s said...
Mar. 20, 2010 at 9:11 am
this was amazing!!!! love it!
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