By day, one thing...and by night the same.
And I have only myself to blame.
I seem to be losing all whom I love,
Gone like the flight of the bright white dove.
I started a journey to get back what I lost,
But my heart is darkened, covered in frost.
Where do I go, how can I tell...
If my delusions of hope are naught but a spell?
I see now that I will only get worse,
Because I've fallen under a dark curse.
Piece by piece, those whom I love slip away...
Nightmares never-ending, not one of them will stay.
I ask you this, as my tears stain these keys...
What am I worth when all I bring is disease?
Heartache, stress, and insanity too...
I'm not worth the pain I put you through.
I apologize for everything I've done,
As I know my fight cannot be won.
Now as you all slip away into your light,
I will try my best to make the wrongs right.
Once again I ask, as my speech comes to an end...
After all the pain I caused...am I still worthy to be called your friend?