All this pain inside
burning,
itching,
acheing,
to get out.
Feeling utterly
useless,
alone,
confused,
and I dont know why.
I cut to numb the
pain,
sorrow,
agony,
I feel everyday.

At school I pretend I'm fine,
like nothings wrong.
Laugh when I need to,
and smile when I have to.
So far no one has seen
behind my mask.
I've worked so hard o create it.
No one can break through,
no one can tell I'm living
a complele lie.

I cry out all the
lies,
secrets,
dignity,
everything I wish I could say.
Wishing I didnt have to
fake,
lie,
pretend,
everyday of my life.
Screaming in my head for someone to
help me,
see me,
save me,
from myself.

But realizing it will never happen.
So i just get out of bed,
and start it all over again.....