Memories of you
From so long ago..
All the passion I felt,
I never let it show.
I only cried
When I was alone.
When anyone was home
My pain I kept
Bottled up inside.
I always felt like
I needed to hide.
In the yard
Playing around
I visualized your body
Alone in the cold ground.
I wished I was with you.
Wished I had died..
Wished it was me,
For whom everyone cried.
They would still have you,
You could have helped them through,
Helped them move on.
Everyone passes,
Everyone dies.
Even in classes,
I have tears in my eyes.
The one word..
“Cancer”..
Was all I could hear.
It felt so distant..
But yet, so near.
I never knew
What to say.
By your side
Every day.
Could you hear me?
They told me no..
But I saw your will..
The power you let show.
I held that strength
Close to my heart..
Hid it inside,
So I wouldn’t be torn apart.
Yet, always, I cried
And hid from them all.
Comfort me? They tried.
I hid from their call.
In myself
I kept this pain,
Hoping to never
Set it free again,
But as life goes on
And memories live on,
I will never forget the story
Of the strength of my moms mom…