Trust, when you let someone in, someone you tell everything, give them everything and anything tell them your insecurities.Your past, and what you hope for your future. But how can you trust someone when that one person you did trust, ruined it, crushed it destroyed it. toke all your innocence and stole it, how do you recover from that, how do you make your heart mend.
find someone else?
trust someone else?
how can you, how can you try and trust someone when you can't trust yourself. you hate yourself for caring for loving for trusting someone. You wonder why you would, you wish you could go back see through the blurry and blast. and see what was really going on, as others saw it you stood blind, love sick a lost puppy wanting a owner. So you went on straight ahead full speed and in the process you lost yourself and you felt all the emotions in the book, emotions you didn't know you could feel. and in the end there's pain. And you replay the memories over and over not wanting to forget, not knowing if you can forget. because you know that everything you've felt can't be replaced even if you try, you can't replace it not with food, drugs, alcohol, love. or what you think is love but you just try and be distracted cause if you aren't you are thinking about it all. and you wonder when it will go away when or if you find love again, or if whatever you went through is even love. But it must be, it has to be. Cause if not what then was it all worth it, what made you want it so bad what made you care, was it all for nothing, all the emotions were not for nothing. everything you felt was real. So the real questions, the point to all of this and maybe somethings you'll always wonder. something that will keep you up at night
How do you trust? can you trust? how do you be happy without a life destroying distraction? Will you ever feel normal again? Did losing yourself, help you find your real self? Or is your real self gone for good with your old self?
Will you ever feel the way you did before? Do you want to ?