I call it a headache
but that’s a lie
my head’s not all that hurts

My heart, my soul
my feelings too
it just keeps getting worse

There are sounds
that get louder and louder
that I don’t understand

There are no words
just constant noise
and it’s getting out of hand

My mind is spinning
it won’t slow down
I just cannot keep up

I’m losing myself
I’m distant now
and just so out-of-touch

I don’t know if I’m happy
I can’t remember
how does happy feel?

I can’t say I’m sad
or angry or upset
is this emotion real?

I’m searching for somebody
but oh, I don’t know who
I don’t know what I want

I feel like I should be grateful
with everything I have
and everyone I’ve got

But I just feel out of place
I don’t fit in
with the mesh I feel I should

If I could just please you
if I could just be perfect
I swear to God, I would

I feel so hindered
held back and kept in line
I want to break free

I want support
someone to say I can
someone to believe in me

I want love
someone to lend an ear
strong arms to hold me tight

I want faith
to believe in who I am
and that everything’s alright