I love how you're supportive of me

as if you were a proud older brother. 

Your laugh and sense of humor 

flutters my heart 

in a way I've never felt before. 

The way your hand perfectly aligns with mine 

like a glove

or the way your touch 

is like an electric shock  

reawakening my heart 

of what I thought had been lost.

But now's not the time 

right? 

You say you feel it too

I know 

you can’t deny it

yet something else is telling you 

not now. 

If a person were to ask me

who is someone I would want in my life 

forever your name would be the first 

to escape my lips. 

The weight of your head 

resting on mine 

feels like all the weight on my chest 

is being let go.

The way your thumb 

brushes across the back of mine 

tells me something 

your brain wants to deny

but your heart tells you it’s true.

Yet you say not now 

right? 

My whole life

I never thought 

I would find someone that I connect with 

as much as I do with you. 

It's as if I’m being held down

with heavy leather straps

tied onto a wooden chair

looking at you through the other side of the glass

not being able to control what happens now.

Like my fate is in the palm of your hand

where at any given moment 

you can flip the switch

deciding when this part of my life ends.

Now 

I have to love you

from afar 

because it’s not time yet

right?