i smile politely,
as you talk of my beauty,
i attempt a laugh
as you try to impress me,
and i try not to be stiff
as you hug me goodbye.
because i am in love
with your brother.
your older brother,
whos warm eyes i cant forget
whos smile
makes me want
to place my palm gently,
lovingly on his cheek.
the brother who
has always known me,
and who i have always loved.

the one who doesnt love me back,
who pushed me away...

so il politely smile,
as you say cheesy compliments,
and il attempt a laugh
for your benefit,
and il allow you to hug me,
but dont ask for my heart,
because your blood and kin has it
locked tightly away.
forever.