It’s 5 am, I'm in my room, tossing, turning, don’t know what to do 

Then all of a sudden I get a sharp pain in my head.

This feeling of 

my body 

shutting down just started and

this is new to me 

I don’t know what to do 

my heart r a c i n g, 

jumping, skipping, it’s moving fast, 

numbness through my whole body. 

I need help. 

I want this feeling to go away 

I want to go to sleep 

          I need to breathe, 

I need to calm down, 

My grandma is here to comfort me.

  Going to the doctor feels like it’s been hours.

 I am there only to be told I am fine and healthy although 

I feel like I had a heart attack. 

This is only the start of many.