Sometimes I all wish i was dead 

Sometimes I just want to stay in bed

I want the pain to end

I want to go to sleep and not wake up

I put on a fake face

I take my place

you ask what’s wrong 

I say I’m  fine 

I would try to tell you 

you'd say your being dramatic 

then you get a call

that I tried hurting ourself

you yell at me

I cry running to my room

Open the door

look closer

I’m not fine

you see my pain

you try to help

but you don’t know what it’s like

you see the pins and needles 

you ask what I’m doing

i hide them

your eyes start to tear up

you messed up

i have tried to tell you

your too focused on everything else 

you put me in your shadow

Help me I say Help me

I need you

I’m falling apart 

I think about suicide everyday 

I’m hurting inside

you call me anti social

but really I’m scared

scared of getting hurt

i let people into my life

then they leave

i try to love

you break my heart

you make me feel unworthy of love

Help me

I want to love 

but I can’t 

my heart is gone

its been broken too many times 

I stay in my room

on my phone 

I fantasize about a better life

i cry myself to sleep 

school doesn’t help 

it makes I’d worse

it adds more pressure

this is a daily cycle

i go to my teacher and ask for help

they send me to guidance

that doesn’t help 

they call my parents

that doesn’t help 

I cut my arms

i cut my legs

i always try self harm 

Help me 

I wear big hoodies 

I always try to hide it

I’m getting bullied at school 

they call me names

they say your ugly, your fat, you’re too skinny, emo

when I tell you

you ask did you tell your teacher

we tell the teacher 

THAT DOESN’T HELP 

I stop eating

i stop sleeping 

you take me to the doctor

they don’t do anything 

Help me

Oh wait you’re more focused on my grades

we I try to hang out with my friends

you make up excuses 

you're the reason I don’t have a social life 

I’m broken on the floor crying

i walk out with red puffy eyes 

I put my hood up

Help me

Help me

i need you

Love me

I you love me I might love you