as if I were drowning, as if I couldn't breathe, she pulled me up

when she leaves all I can feel is the pain 

the sorrow 

the death 

I lay and stare and feel everything but anything 

she comes though and I see all as if she is my looking glass

I smile and it's real 

i can breathe

any thoughts of her leaving, of her dying, cripple my brain

as if no one else matters, as if she is my sun, my moon, my star 

anything I've heard about having a person, having a love, having a friend, all become my reality when she enters my brain 

better than a boyfriend, better than a girlfriend

she's my best friend and my lifeline 

I attach to her as if without her everything goes dark and I have nothing

the concept is scary and creates a weight but my mind can't seem to see her in any other light 

no sadness is never at its lowest with her helping me, with her holding me and talking to me

I'm not full with her 

I'm not fixed

I'm not perfect but it's feels as if I am 

as if I am full 

as if I am fixed

as if I am perfect.