Getting distancing back-to-back  

To stable my emotions  

My tears form waves like the  

motion of the ocean  

By pain I was slowly broken down like erosion  

Like a ghost past pain haunts 

I’m still going through the motions  

Waters becomes still and  

suddenly I am frozen  

By what everyone else wants I’m motioned 

Energy drain from all the commotion 

Walls start to close air gets thin  

And I feel like I’m chocking 

I feel like I’m drowning sinking  

Slowly drifting to the bottom of the ocean 

But nobody notices  

I start to reach for the top 

Lungs start to burn  

The fire grows and never stops  

I give up on reaching out for help 

Vision blurs  

With realization I’m by myself  

Lungs fill with water  

And I can’t breathe  

I become Unconscious I can’t think  

My lung become an explosion  

I love too hard unwanted devotion  

Unhappy with self never had much notion  

I’m Stuck and can’t move – 

still going through the motions.