This jealousy hits me in waves,
But is it so wrong to crave;
A smaller waist or slimmer thighs,
To appeal to this society made of lies?
I can feel my skin turning green,
As I stare upon my screen,
And see the smiles and laughter,
And seemingly happy ever afters.
But tell me where is mine?
When is my chance to shine?
Instead I live among the shadows,
And dance with all my sorrows.
I hate that I’m so vain,
But I’m afraid I can’t contain,
These feelings filled with envy,
As my burdens grow more heavy.
See I just long to be loved,
But instead I’m beat down and shoved;
By insurmountable expectations,
And foolish allegations.
Who to be and how to act,
I try my best to stay intact.
But lately I feel drained,
My heart is tied up in chains.
I’ve lost my own identity,
Yet they demand integrity.
The wave grows into a tsunami,
I’m afraid we’ve reached the finale.
In my own jealousy I have drowned,
Don’t tell me you’re confound.