I’m not in front of you anymore
but you see my face in passing strangers
and get an empty feeling when she rests her head on your chest
You search my case as you stare into her cloudy eyes
my heart is intertwine with yours
i knew it from the second I sat with my back and get my child a dresser the daisy knobs sticking into my upper back. 
I no longer ask you if you still love me.
I no longer big for phone calls.
I no longer sit in the deafening  silence that is your absence.
when I’m alone.
I do not think of you.
but my body recognizes your disappearance when it is curled up under sheets you never touched when I slip into close you’ve never seen or listen to a song we haven’t shared no longer suffocate out of without you.
Oh I am not broken. 
I am not lonely.
I am just unfinished.
it feel so juvenile calling you love when it feels this astronomical.
it’s mind bending and complicated.
it feels like I discovered a whole other part of myself without you.
I truly do not think I will ever find someone like that that completes me.
but that truly sees me you only get one of those I’m sure.
There’s no way you could possibly find that twice.
it’s only in human experience.
and the feeling of finding that one person you truly know you were supposed to.
it’s not that I think you are the end all be all of my existence.
because I will love after you.
the seeds I planted in the empty parts of my soul to fill the spot you fit in so effortlessly will bloom even in your absence. 
you will always be a part of me.
no matter who I follow sleep next to.
i will continue to be whole.
even decades after your departure.
but no amount of love ever compare.
to every star in the sky