I

Feel

Overwhelmed

Compelled

Hurt inside I have held

Onto for so long

These thoughts conking my brain like a gong

Oh this joyous song

It’s all gone wrong

Eating at my brain

And it will not refrain

It leaves me in pain

I sit in the rain

Drops scattering

My teeth chattering

It’s all happening

So fast too fast

This moment is my last

But who would’ve asked?

Panic soars through my head

Where have I been misled

A path I have fled

When will it leave me dead

A time I cannot wonder

Rain increasing to thunder

I need shelter to be under

When can I be alone

Sitting on this throne

In a place I call my home

A throne of my mind

It keeps me blind

To where I could be so inclined

Once turned to dust

Or left behind to rust

Move forward I must

But they keep pulling me

Chains that I can’t see

Help me find the key

Nothing is working

It’s got my head turning

My brain is burning

Set on fire

Wishing free from desire

Flying to go higher

They pull me back

Down down to attack

I need to be back on track

But these thoughts spiraling

They want to be encouraging

But should I even be listening?

Toxic are their words

In me they concern

Singed ashes that hurt

I must be alert 

I’m standing

Looking at it

Name the pit

I stare into

Anything will fit

Panic taking my wit

I'm standing

Looking

Hoping I don’t fall in too