It’s the summer of 2016, ‘stupid me’

14 years old, thinking I know everything.

Everything was going great, but little did I know…

Boys will be boys.

‘I think,’ she said slowly.

You can drive a person crazy by simply refusing to look at them

There's nothing like being ignored by someone you have feelings for.

Our hearts are like creatures and our ribs are the cage.

Time only gets worse.

Minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months go by.

You realized how time fly’s in just the blink of an eye

Thought I found a way out.

Can’t run from it, always a step behind.

The worst part is I’m trapped in my own mind.

The end is near, I can not keep trying

stop asking if I’m okay,

I’m tired of Lying.

Your hugs were always tight, seeing you was a memorable sight,

The love I had for you was always so bright.

I tried making your life right, but I couldn’t when you didnt treat me right.

Imprisoning you, in a perpetual nightmare.

I’m trying to remember what it was like,

To fall asleep at night without crying 10 times.

My eyes are red, my vision is blurred.

My fake smile is getting heavy.

I can’t help but think of how you touched my skin,

You made me forget how traumatized the world is.

It hurts to think of you and her.

I’m tired of living in darkness, going through the memories.

It’s almost time to quit, most fear death. 

There's only one way out of this,

My mind has won.

It is now 2019, oh how the tables have turned. 

17 years old, admitting I don’t know everything.

I still wait for you to text,

waiting for you to think of me.

Hoping I’d cross your mind at least once, but I never do.

We went from strangers- to best friends- to wingmen- to lovers,

it hurts knowing we may never speak to each other.

You lost the hope and you chose to give up,

Proving that your love was undetectable.

No more incessant torment,

all the memories are gone.

Not one picture of You and I, no contact at all.

I chose my worth, instead of being mistreated.

It took a little while but I planted new seeds,

I’m growing more each and every day.

Becoming a bigger and better version of myself.

No more affliction

No longer feeling ignored, no longer caring for your attention.

Expunge the toxic people out of your life!

The toxic people are the ones who hold you back,

The ones who don’t wish you the best.

The ones who don’t defend your name when you’re not around.

Fulfill your life with great people, the ones who value you,

 the ones that know your worth and support your every choice,

The ones that go above and beyond to make sure you’re happy.