I try to escape my head

But I can’t seem to

I toss and turn in my bed

And take forever to drift

In the morning I wish I were dead

I don’t miss who you are

I miss the happiness that was

I miss the smiles and hugs and kisses

I miss coming over just because

I’m tortured and beaten by my thoughts

I need healing, mental gauze

You’ve changed

I don’t know why I don’t know how

The new queen of the world

Expecting all to bow

Used to bring happiness and comfort

Pain and misery in your wake now

The fault is mine

I know that it's true

At times I can’t breath

Choking till I’m blue

I don’t know this person you are

To me she is new

I’m haunted by you

A ghost in my brain

I always felt extraordinary, special

Without you I am plain

I can’t take it, let it go

Holding on is utter pain

Are you lost

Or are you gone forever

Will I see you again

Or will I never

You were what held me here

You were my tether

I gave you my whole heart

But yours was a loan

I was happy and loved

And now I’m alone

I wish it weren’t so, I do

Because of you, my life postponed