16 Years wasn’t enough

Not enough summers in Massachusetts,

Late night phase 10,

Not enough time.

When you left I lost

My confidant.

You inspired me everyday.

But your gone,

And I am still here.

But I can’t be selfish,

I know what is was like,

The pain of a t-shirt,

The guilt of thinking you self absorbed,

I know.

They thought you were selfish,

But you were doing what you

Thought was best for you.

I know what it's like to be judged

By those, who despite their best efforts,

Could never understand the struggles,

We go through everyday.

It was your time, your body was ready.

I wasn’t ready to lose you forever,

But I will survive,

I have to.

You always told me that sometimes,

You need to be selfish and put you

First.

And I will, I will get up and get better

Because of you.

You mean the world to me, I hope

You knew how much I love you.

I didn’t get to say goodbye,

But I was never good at those.

Consider this a promise,

You will always be with me,

And I will hear your voice encouraging me

To be the best.