These past few days, I’ve been pondering. Being fifteen and trying to understand where you stand, what you are meant to do, and where you want to see yourself ten years from now is heavier than people admit. I’ve tried to keep my doors open and sought career counselling, only to find that the clarity I expected made the uncertainty feel sharper.

My aptitudes suggest that I could pursue almost anything and still excel. I never imagined that possibility itself could feel like a burden.

As individuals, we carry three things with us: our passion, our calling, and our necessity. Perhaps I am too young to fully understand how these intersect. Maybe what I lack is experience — perspectives I have yet to live through. But I am certain of one thing: I do not want to spend my life pursuing a career I neither respect nor feel inclined toward, one that leaves me feeling hollow.

I look around and see adults weighed down by regret, alongside a few who are genuinely content. When asked what guided their choices, many respond with, “Whatever puts food on the plate.” That answer unsettles me. I don’t want a job that merely sustains me; I want a career that fulfils me.

I want to commit myself to something without constantly fearing how it could go wrong — something that feels worthwhile simply because I am doing it. I want to believe that my work, even if it touches only one life, has the power to change it. I want a career that allows me to live, not just exist.

At this age, uncertainty feels inevitable. But recognising that uncertainty is what matters. It allows us to stop rushing toward answers and start working toward a path that feels honest. For me, that path is rooted in impact — in challenging fixed ways of thinking, in helping people see themselves more truthfully, and in questioning the pressure to conform.

No career is free of struggle. But I want the struggle to be purposeful. I want to challenge my own perceptions as much as I hope to influence others’. This is a long journey, one shaped by reflection, growth, and self-understanding. And perhaps that, more than certainty, is where meaning begins.