It is not my blood under that microscope
They must have mixed up the vials
I will never have to take steroids or chemo
Nausea will not overtake my body each morning
I am not sick, that blood is not mine
My hair will remain attached to my head
A port, what is that? I will never know
Other kids will not pick on me because of my appearance
I will never sleep in a hospital
I am not sick, that blood is not mine
I will never be a cancer patient
Mutated cells are not destroying my body
My life will not change
I will wake up from this horrible nightmare
I am not sick, that blood is not mine

I lost weight because I didn't eat
I didn't eat because I wasn't hungry
I was pale because I didn't go outside
I didn't go outside because I didn't want to
I was exhausted because I didn't sleep
I didn't sleep because I couldn't shut my mind off
I was weak because I didn't exercise
I didn't exercise because it was too hard
I didn't play with my friends because I watched TV
I watched TV because it didn't take any effort
I was not acting like a normal girl because I was different
I was different because I had cancer.

It was the chlorine in my drinking water
It was the polluted air I breathed in
It was the genes passed on by my parents
It was the radiation emitted from the microwave
I am trapped in the body that sabotaged me
It was my blood cells that mutated themselves
It was the spoiled milk that I drank
It was the pen cap I chewed on for days
It was the school lunch I consumed
I am trapped in the body that sabotaged me
It was the time I didn't wear sunscreen
It was the rusty nail I stepped on
It was the aerosol spray that entered my lungs
It was the reason that I feel so debilitated
I am trapped in the body that sabotaged me

I swallowed the pills because I was sick
I was sick because of a mutated cell
I cried that morning because it hurt to stand up
It hurt to stand up because my muscles were sore
I fell down in the shower because my back gave out
My back gave out because it was being poisoned
I wore a bandana because my hair fell out
My hair fell out because of the chemotherapy I took
I lay in my bed because I was stuck in my room
I was stuck in my room because I couldn't walk down the stairs
I did not look like a normal girl because I was different
I was different because I had cancer

I take back the time I yelled at my siblings
I take back the mean name I called my friend
I take back the anger that escaped my body
I take back the time I forgot to say thank you
Why is this disease destroying my body?
I take back the time I broke that silver necklace
I take back the lie I told my mom
I take back feelings of jealousy toward my classmates
I take back the time I said that I hated my family
Why is this disease destroying my body?
I take back the time I ruined the surprise party
I take back the guilt I made my dad feel
I take back the envy I felt for my sister
I take back the times I pretended to be sick
Why is this disease destroying my body?

I wanted a cause for my terminal illness because I needed a reason
I needed a reason so I would stop blaming myself
I realized it was not anything that I had done because that didn't make sense
That didn't make sense because healthy people did the same things
I needed to stop trying to blame because I had to face reality
I had to face reality because the truth is that I may never know what caused my disease
I learned that cancer was more than a disease because it changed my life
It changed my life because it threatened to take it away
I continued to fight because I wasn't ready to give up my life
I wasn't ready to give up my life because I had so much more I wanted to accomplish
I did not think like a normal girl because I was different
I was different because I had cancer

It was my blood under that microscope
They did not mixed up the vials
I had to take steroids and chemo
Nausea took over my body each morning
I was sick, that blood was mine
My hair fell off my head
A port was an IV's pathway to my veins
Other kids did pick on me because of my appearance
I slept in a hospital every other weekend for a year and a half
I was sick, that blood was mine
I was a cancer patient
Mutated cells were destroying my body
My life changed dramatically
I never woke up from that reality
I was sick, that blood was mine

I look at the world through different eyes because I am a survivor
I am a survivor because I never gave up
I look forward to the future because I know that it is bright
I know that it is bright because I will embrace every opportunity that comes my way
I am thankful for my doctors, nurses, family, and friends because they helped to save my life
They helped to save my life because they knew it was not over
I am proud of myself because I conquered leukemia
I conquered leukemia because I am strong

I had cancer. Cancer NEVER had me.