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Who I'm Not

April 16, 2011
By Secretlypoetic GOLD, Hastings, Michigan
Secretlypoetic GOLD, Hastings, Michigan
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There is a boy. Isn’t there always? This boy is different though, he is so vain, yet so modest, so gorgeous, but perfectly offset so he doesn’t look like a statue of a Greek god. He is amazing, he is funny, he is kind, and he is hers. Of course, we are friends so I talk to him every day and I have to pretend that I am happy for him and my best friend. Yes, my best friend is dating the boy I have been in love with since the third grade. I have to force a smile on my face and an agreement to my lips whenever she asks me “Isn’t he perfect?” or “Aren’t we just amazing together?” He is a boy that you would never expect her to like, he hangs out with the people who aren’t popular, but also aren’t complete nerds. People like me. She is popular, bleach blond, tan, skinny, and athletic.
Our relationship hangs by a thread, even though Kali and I have been friends since kindergarten. She knew that I loved him, buy yet when he asked her to homecoming freshman year she said yes. Right in front of my face. And I haven’t told her just how much it hurts to see them standing together, laughing in my face, smiling at their love that I don’t get to share. Because now instead of hanging out with me, she’s with him, and now, instead of talking to me, he talks to her. Before I was able to sit in my daydreams and hope that one day he would ask me out, and that someday we would date and it would be wonderful. Now every time I look at her I see the things that I am not, skinny, blonde, athletic. Yet I am my own person, I am not a girl who conforms, I am not a girl who dyes my hair blonde to look more attractive, I am not a girl who goes tanning just to make the boys follow me like moths to a light. I am the type of person who will love someone for who they are not what they look like, so now I know the girl’s a b****, the boys still amazing, but I will keep on living, and keep on loving, with or without them.

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This article has 5 comments.

on Jun. 16 2011 at 9:46 pm
Secretlypoetic GOLD, Hastings, Michigan
14 articles 0 photos 31 comments
Thanks! I really appreciate your comment!

on Jun. 14 2011 at 1:12 pm
nikkigonefishin GOLD, Los Angeles, California
17 articles 1 photo 145 comments

Favorite Quote:
" A smile is worth a thousand words"
" The purpose of the writer is to keep civilization from destroying itself."- Albert Camus

This is AWESOME! I especially liked the end because it reflects what I believe in; that no matter what the circumstance is you always" keep on living, and keep on loving, with or without them."

on Apr. 26 2011 at 5:38 pm
Secretlypoetic GOLD, Hastings, Michigan
14 articles 0 photos 31 comments
Well, partially yes, but partially no if you know what I mean. My best friend and I are totally grown apart, and she was dating a guy that I liked, when I write I always add more drama :D

on Apr. 24 2011 at 5:23 pm
ClaraRose SILVER, Glasgow, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"It's not what we are born, but what we grow to be."

"you think that because I am Poor, Obscure, Plain and little, that I am Soulless and Heartless. I have just as much soul as you and full as much heart"

Really good, is it based on truth???

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on Apr. 22 2011 at 9:48 pm
Alise BRONZE, El Monte, California
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Favorite Quote:
Wisdom is knowing what to do next; Skill is knowing how to do it, and Virtue is doing it.

love it:)