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Who is the One?

October 9, 2013
By Calliashi SILVER, Litchfield Park, Arizona
Calliashi SILVER, Litchfield Park, Arizona
6 articles 0 photos 74 comments

Favorite Quote:
The man with the key is king and honey, you should see me in a crown. ~James Moriarty


Dear Diary,
For so long I’ve fallen in love and had that love crushed. If that was by disappointment, or by repositioning, I’ve felt the pain and distant prick that love can bestow upon the lover.
But, then again, what is love? Is it that fuzzy feeling you get when you stretch out your legs and curl up by the hearth on a cold winter’s night? Or is it more like the rumbling, crashing, horrible storm that fell onto Jesus and his disciples in the ocean? Love, with its complications, can be taken as a wondrous, pleasant feeling or a bad, unmistakable feeling of terror and pain. Love can be comfortable or unnaturally exciting. Either way, everyone hopes to experience this lovely feeling called love.
My life itself has been filled up to the brim with all the feelings, confusion, and overall—heartbreak. I’ve had minor crushes blown away with the wind by the odd measures of future’s secrets and unnatural habits, you could say, for children. Then, there was the one.
My second crush was my first real crush. It was one of those crushes that made your stomach flutter or your cheeks burn and blush. When I spoke to him, my heart raced . . . or might as well have. That once time our hands touched, I lost my breath. My heart skipped a beat. I felt like screaming to the world. Some people may find it stupid, cheesy, or downright annoying to hear about. To those people, I say they haven’t truly experienced love, then.
He, my second crush, moved away less than a year after my love’s development. I was crushed; torn between moving on or staying behind. My mind drifted between forgetting him to mourning the fact I’ll never see him again. He meant so much to me, it makes me sick to think about it. But then he just disappeared from my life. Just like that.
My crush has appeared in my dreams, like a haunting ghost that refuses to leave. It may sound babyish, but I’ve cried, thinking about him. How I long to see his face, just one last time. How I long to hear his voice.
Perhaps the reason why this is particularly killing me is because I never knew. I never knew how he felt about me. I’m positive he knew how I felt about him, but I doubt he loved me back.
I feel like Romeo when he loved Rosaline. He fell head over heels for her and felt he couldn’t live without her. He was depressed until he met Juliet. I’m still waiting for my “Juliet”. The one person to snap me out of it. The one person to make me forget.
(Okay, maybe not a perfect metaphor since they both die at the end, but you get where I’m coming from?)
But what if there is no one? It could be possible that the boy who moved away was my one true love. I don’t believe in soul mates. It is way too slim of a chance that someone would find their “one”. You would have a better chance of winning the lottery or getting struck by lightning.
I pose this question to you: how do you know? How do you know if someone is perfect for you? Do you know if someone’s perfect for you? Have you ever cried for someone that’s left you? Had that person appear in your dreams? Would it be enough? How can you be sure?
Was he the one? And if he is? If he is the one . . .
I let him get away.



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on Nov. 3 2013 at 4:48 pm
SpeakerOfTheDead PLATINUM, Lemont, Illinois
27 articles 31 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
“How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.”
― Henry David Thoreau

It flows like a poem! It has fantastic descriptive language. 

Tamy24 said...
on Oct. 27 2013 at 12:45 pm
Tamy24, Brooklyn, New York
0 articles 0 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
" Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the commonplace, the slaves of the ordinary." Cecil Beaton- note to self

Oh my Gosh! I love this poem, it's beautiful and so well written. You are an amazing writer and your work is awesome. When I was reading your poem I just kept hoping with the excitement I had to know what was going to happen next. And I feel you so much when you said he left and now you wonder if he was the one. In my head I thought, if he is the one he will come back, but if he isn't the one he will leave. VERY NICE :) That is so beautiful...

on Oct. 26 2013 at 12:02 pm
The_Capricornian GOLD, Marietta, Georgia
12 articles 0 photos 30 comments

Favorite Quote:
There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed. - Ernest Hemingway

Calliashi…  I don’t know what to say.  It’s almost as if you went inside my head and pulled out what has been going on in there.  Personally, finding this story was ironic because even though the emotions displayed here are stronger than the ones I have/had, I ended up having to put down my feelings on paper and sending them to the friend who left me the night before I read this…

on Oct. 21 2013 at 7:13 pm
Aramis_999 PLATINUM, Matthews, North Carolina
25 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be strong, believe in freedom and in God, love yourself, understand your sexuality, have a sense of humor, don’t judge people by their religion, color or sexual habits, love life and your family. -Madonna

OI liked this, a lot. You used wonderfull descriptive language, especially when describibg what love felt like. The only fault I found was that it flowed a little ackwardly, but as its a diary entry story it makes since.  4 stars :]

on Oct. 21 2013 at 2:51 am
TanazMasaba GOLD, Dhaka, Other
16 articles 10 photos 214 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening,
And live like it's Heaven on Earth."













---William W. Purkey

First of all, I like this entry waaaayyyy better than the first. Still gonna stick to my "show not tell" advice, but we'll get to that later. I love the description, the way you personified emotions and the way the narrator asks herself all these questions. I'm pretty sure a lot of readers (including me) would be able to identify with the character cause she's ordinary, real and she's asking questions that we all have but don't really speak of. This article was a lot more emotional and you can't help but sympathize with her.   Okay now the thing I want to tell you. Since this is a diary series, maybe you should look up on books like The Princess Diaries or Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl (if you haven't already). If you have read those books, then think of the style of writing there. Anne Frank and Meg Cabot did not just write, they showed their world to their readers. Give it a try and study their style.Hope this helps and good luck!

on Oct. 21 2013 at 2:43 am
TanazMasaba GOLD, Dhaka, Other
16 articles 10 photos 214 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening,
And live like it's Heaven on Earth."













---William W. Purkey

Okay silly me but I didn't realize this was a part of a series of diary entries! XD my bad.

on Oct. 19 2013 at 10:23 pm
Fallen_ PLATINUM, Quakertown, Pennsylvania
25 articles 3 photos 436 comments

Favorite Quote:
" a shattered world is only an opening into a new beginning with laughs, smiles, and love all around enter the world of the light and away from the broken darkness"

Amazing, once again you use dear diary which is just amazing and i love how this ones about love which is in its sort a cliche topic which you have changed it into something unique well done as always

on Oct. 18 2013 at 8:30 pm
LaChouette GOLD, Mount Vernon, New York
12 articles 0 photos 146 comments

Favorite Quote:
“And then there are the times when the wolves are silent and the moon is howling.”
- George Carlin

Aww, I have an idea what that feels like. I enjoyed the idea of asking questions at the end; it makes the reader think. It's a very clever idea. I saw one spelling mistake, but other than that, I think it's really good. Nice job!

Mstarlight said...
on Oct. 17 2013 at 7:26 pm
Mstarlight, Alamogordo, New Mexico
0 articles 0 photos 3 comments
I love your story! It is very meaningful and really spoke to me.

holly1999 GOLD said...
on Oct. 17 2013 at 3:52 am
holly1999 GOLD, Middlesbrough, Other
12 articles 8 photos 114 comments

Favorite Quote:
'There was no need to clarify my finger snap, the implication was clear in the snap itself' - Magnus Bane

Great story! You used some amazing description and your writing style was perfect. The narrator was easy to relate to and you included so much detail of her emotions I could really understand how she was feeling. I can't think of any criticism for this! It interested me from the start and I particularly liked the first paragraph. Amazing writing! :)


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