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Nothing You Can Do

May 1, 2010
By Sketched97 PLATINUM, Silver Spring, Maryland
Sketched97 PLATINUM, Silver Spring, Maryland
31 articles 4 photos 168 comments

The first day of 9th grade. Most kids were shopping for back to school supplies, picking out their outfits, or gossiping about how Rachel Allen is starting the year with a hot junior boyfriend. But I wasn’t doing any of those things. I never did. I was standing in front of my full length mirror doing my “exercises.” They were important. For an hour each day I stood in front of the mirror criticizing how I looked. For motivation, of course. It was very important, unless I wanted to be fat!
I checked my phone. A new text message. "Great." I muttered to myself halfheartedly, "Another distraction."
It was from my sort-of-but-more-like-former best friend. She wanted me to go shopping. “Can’t” I typed, “Running errands for my mom, then going to some dinner end of summer thing. Sorry :(” Okay, so it wasn’t true. But it was for my own good. I could go shopping when I was thin.
It was burning hot but I went running anyway. I ran until my legs couldn’t hold me anymore. Then I felt into the grass and puked until I was empty. Then I jogged home. I was so used to it now, it was a routine, and my body already knew what was coming.
At dinner, my mom looked worried. “Honey, didn’t you listen to the therapist and doctor. You have to eat all your dinner.” She looked truly concerned, and even a little angry. For a second I felt a wave of guilt, but as passed like always.
“I can do what I want, and you can’t force me. There’s nothing you can do about it.” I smiled smugly, but inside I was dying. I put my played with food in the sink and sauntered to my room.
All of 9th grade would be this day over and over again. Lying, distancing myself, telling people they couldn’t force me, there was nothing they could do about it. Eventually all my friends would fade away, but I told myself it was for the best. Less distractions. When I was thin I could have all the fun I wanted.
But I didn’t know that I’d never have that fun. That I’d eventually starve myself to death. And I was right. There was nothing anyone could do about it.



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on Aug. 22 2010 at 6:05 pm
CheshireCat PLATINUM, Paducah, Kentucky
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Favorite Quote:
We're all mad here

so is the gurl anorexic cuz that is wat i was getting out of it. I thought it was good no not good AMAZING plz check out some of my work i would luv to see wat u have to say about them

on Jul. 8 2010 at 9:44 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker
We cannot change the cards we're dealt just how we play the hand
Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted
It's pretty easy to be smart when you're parroting smart people
-Randy Pausch

This was so AMAZING! It really captured the view point of a bulimic person.  Very well-written and interesting.  Fabulous job.

on Jun. 7 2010 at 7:58 pm
Sketched97 PLATINUM, Silver Spring, Maryland
31 articles 4 photos 168 comments
im really bad at thinking of names so i always do that. :) 

on Jun. 7 2010 at 7:56 pm
Sketched97 PLATINUM, Silver Spring, Maryland
31 articles 4 photos 168 comments
haha i knoww all the named i think of are cheesy as hell so i always use ems names. hah. 

someoneee said...
on Jun. 7 2010 at 7:55 pm
rachel allen? heheheheh xD and no im not a stalker i go to EMS

on May. 23 2010 at 4:12 pm
WiseGirl BRONZE, Adams, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
"I think, therefore I am."
-Rene Decartes

This was a really good story! Keep writing!

on May. 22 2010 at 8:11 pm
SmileyFace94 SILVER, Queens, New York
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wow, this felt so real! i really like the way you wrote that. great job :)

Kasumi BRONZE said...
on May. 22 2010 at 11:35 am
Kasumi BRONZE, Mequon, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
Life can be hard and sad, but there is good things in life, too

Aww, its a few sad story but I really like it! 

IvyVine SILVER said...
on May. 21 2010 at 2:29 pm
IvyVine SILVER, Unknown, Indiana
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it seemed so real!

on May. 20 2010 at 4:09 pm
i love this it pulled me in, you have to write a second part to this

on May. 20 2010 at 4:03 pm
it was soo good i love it you have talent

JacobC GOLD said...
on May. 19 2010 at 5:31 pm
JacobC GOLD, Belgium, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
"Am I indecisive? Well, yes and no." -Anonymous

Good story.

LillyK said...
on May. 19 2010 at 3:23 pm
That is Amazing! It sounds like it's going to be great.


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