I wish it didn't end like that. I can think of a million different ways that, that day could have went. That moment, it literally went from amazing to heart-crushing in 5 seconds. Nate and I never had a fight until that day. We weren't like the normal couples. We were considered the "perfect" couple, at least that is what a lot of our friends called us. That was a simpler time in our lives. The games have changed, a complete 160. Things are so different now and I don't even remember how it happened. I mean I know mentally, but physically I don't. All I wanted was to surprise him on our one year anniversary. I planned everything out so perfectly. I booked a private hotel suite, ordered his favorite food, even bought him the most expensive watch, which was what he wanted for a while now. I told him that I was going to pick him up around 8:00 P.M on April 23rd, 2010. I finished my shift at the nursing home early and was able to go to the wine store to get the most fanciest wine they had. About $50 later, I went home and changed out of my scrubs and changed into one of my most elegant dresses that I owned. I hopped into my car and headed to his house to pick him up.
I arrived a few minutes before I told him that I would pick him up. It was so silent, other than a few cars driving by, it was the most beautiful night out. The stars shined bright and it was a cool but comfortable 60 degrees. Minutes later Nate hopped into my car and we were on our way. For the note he didn't know I planned any of this, he just thought we were going to dinner or to my apartment. He was in such of a good mood, more excited than usual & honestly it freaked me out a little bit because usually he is a calm and collected kind of guy, but I just surpassed it as being excited that it was our one year anniversary.
I pulled into the hotel parking lot and then it hit him, that I was up to something. I checked us in and we went on up to our room. Dinner was warm and the wine was ice cold. Everything was perfect, I was so content with life in that moment, but nothing prepared me for what was about to go down 20 minutes from them. We finished dinner and we were just sitting there talking about our futures and how we met. That's when it happened. He said it.
"We should move in together" He said.
I was in so much shock.
"Move in together?" I asked confused.
"Yeah, I know that we have only been together for a year, but I Love You Maia." He said in a sweet tone.
I had this plan. I wanted to finish Medical School, then maybe after I graduate move in with him. We were only 23. We were young and busy with our lives.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I like the idea, it's just that we talked about this. I want to finish Medical School before I decide to really settle down with someone." I replied calmly.
"I know Maia, but I want to be able to come home to you everyday and sit down with my beautiful girlfriend, eating dinner and talking about our days." He stated.
"I know, it's just a REALY big step for us this soon in a relationship." I replied.
"What do you mean, "Too Soon"?" He started raising his voice. I could tell he was getting irritated.
"I'm just not ready for a big step like this." I said in a calm voice.
He started to get really mad and eventually we were exchanging words that I never really used. Things got heated fast, and before I knew it Nate ran out of the door.
I could think of a million different ways that I could have dealt with that. He calmly told me to take him home.
I took him home and I never heard from him again.
It's been 4 years now. I wish I could go back in the day and fix something that I said. Maybe even one word would have changed it all. 
I heard that he is living with his new girlfriend and their newborn son. Then again, I am living with my fiance and I'm expecting our first child. Maybe things would have been different for us. We can't change the past, but looking back I think that I would have made the same decision to disagree with what he wanted. I was only being honest. Obviously being honest with him and my feelings on that subject showed me how insensitive he was to my feelings. I am finally content again after all these years. I finished medical school, and my fiance and I stuck to the decision to wait until I was done Medical School to move in together. I wouldn't change my life now. Everything is what and where I want it. But who know's what the future holds for me.