Loving you is like wanting death Ep. 1 | Teen Ink

Loving you is like wanting death Ep. 1

August 27, 2009
By iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
14 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
The bad things happen first,then the good things, then more bad things, then more good things: God helps us through the bad things so we can enjoy the good ones. :)

She tried to strike him with her bare fleshed hand. He grabbed it in mid air. "Would you like to try again?" he asked with a dark smirk across his face. Yes! She screamed within herself. She hated him and everything he did to her. She loved him but hated everything about him. He killed her hope of her father coming back to her. She looked away from the hard-chisseled face that captured her in such a trance many times before. "He will come back. He loves me, which is more than what I can say about you!" I shifted away from him. He crossed his arms and began to sigh. He leaned on the fireplace as i sat down on the piano in the middle of the living room. I shuffled through the sheet music and found a symphony from Beethoven's 3rd. I began to play. my fingers gently touching the ancient piece. I could feel his eyes burning a hole through my head. He who stole me away in the middle of the night just to tell me that my father's return was hopeless and just a fairytale. Yes, I hated him. I suddenly didnt feel the urge to play anymore and finished the symphony with my own made up tune. I gently closed the piano and walked to the door to exit this treacherous place he was trying to keep me captive in. He glided in front of the door and leaned on the handle. His face was now serious and stricken with frustration. "For the last time your not going anywhere. So sit now." he brushed his hand through his black hair and lowered his eyes at me. "Move." I said in a husk voice. It was five in the morning i had no time for this. He smiled well more of a sinical smile then a happy-go-lucky one. Jackass. "Make me." He crossed his arms back in place and began to hum the same tune i played a minmute ago. "You arrogant-" I stopped myself. "Fine Ill move you." I spoke in a low whisper. His eyes fluttered as I moved closer to him. His breath and mine lingered together as we breathed in eachothers scent. I skimmed my lips across his. He backed up. Yeah wasnt expecting that one now were you. I kept repeating that in my head. I had the control not him. He lowered his arms and then grabbed me by the waist pulling me closer to him. His rock solid chest against mine. He bit my lower lip and then devoured my lips with a need that he must have been holding back for all this time. It was our first but not our last kiss.

The author's comments:
I enjoy listening to deep and loud hard rock and love techno and alternative. Speaking as one of MANY girls who wear their hearts on their sleeves, I try to channel my feelings for a person in words, which turns into poems.

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on May. 19 2010 at 7:03 pm
MadgeUndersee1 BRONZE, Uxbridge, Massachusetts
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Yeah that kind of confused me, too. but otherwise it was great :]

Catiestar GOLD said...
on May. 9 2010 at 8:53 pm
Catiestar GOLD, Clayton, New Jersey
17 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds <3

wow, this is really good!

Reigyn said...
on May. 9 2010 at 7:14 pm
Reigyn, Toronto, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"Dance like no one is watching, love like you'll never be hurt,sing like no one is listening,and live like it's heaven on earth."- William Purkey
As we struggle to make sense of things, life looks on in repose. ~Author Unknown

wicked beginning! Please tell me there's more.

on May. 9 2010 at 12:19 pm
Lalalovable SILVER, Antioch, California
7 articles 1 photo 50 comments
this is really great! 

on May. 9 2010 at 6:45 am
thfitz2416 GOLD, Pullman, Michigan
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that was realllllllly awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I liked it!


sarah said...
on May. 8 2010 at 5:11 pm
veri good loved the opening

kirby~bug said...
on May. 6 2010 at 12:18 pm
have u read MY STORY yet? its preety awesome!! ill see if youve commented!! i wonder who its written by!?

on May. 6 2010 at 10:35 am
Pixxie_Glitter BRONZE, Lawrence, Massachusetts
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Maybe we will :)

kirby~bug said...
on May. 5 2010 at 6:34 pm
it appears we r both newbees maybe we will hear more from each other!!!!

kirby~bug said...
on May. 5 2010 at 6:19 pm
im new to this site but so far the posts r good!!!!

Riley141 GOLD said...
on Apr. 23 2010 at 4:12 pm
Riley141 GOLD, Yale, Michigan
13 articles 3 photos 145 comments

Favorite Quote:
" Always do right. This will gratifiy some people and astonish the rest." Mark Twain

This was awesome but, You change from third person to first person... good job

Kiki McGee said...
on Apr. 17 2010 at 7:55 pm
I love the whole love/hate relationship

on Apr. 17 2010 at 7:25 am
Pixxie_Glitter BRONZE, Lawrence, Massachusetts
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Hey! I'm new on this site and this is the first story I read! It's really good and hope you'll write more into it.

on Apr. 15 2010 at 10:36 am
beautiful.agony BRONZE, Tonawanda, New York
3 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
love has no distance :)

i agree with your comment about this article you wrote. hard rock and bad times make very beautiful poems.

on Apr. 14 2010 at 6:12 pm
emoVamp247 BRONZE, Port Saint Lucie, Florida
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i love it i want more please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on Apr. 13 2010 at 1:13 pm
LiveLife2theMax GOLD, Wicklow, Other
12 articles 4 photos 74 comments

Favorite Quote:
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
-Robert Frost

I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.
-Kurt Cobain

more please :)

more more more :D

on Mar. 26 2010 at 11:33 am
deardiary BRONZE, Saskatoon, Other
3 articles 0 photos 65 comments

Favorite Quote:
It is a truth universally acknowedged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife. -Pride and Prejudice

very nice.

on Mar. 20 2010 at 2:33 am
xoxoLissieM SILVER, Manila, Other
6 articles 0 photos 23 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Stop acting dumb cause your usually the smart one and I'm the dumb one!"

dis is amazing i keep repeating it all over again!! i cant w8 4 the nxt one!!!

on Mar. 13 2010 at 5:01 pm
imnotjaye SILVER, Los Angeles, California
6 articles 0 photos 22 comments

Favorite Quote:
"We live in an age when unnecessary things are our only necessities."
Oscar Wilde
Irish dramatist, novelist, & poet (1854 - 1900)

i read it again n i think u shood change ur last sentence to sumthang more intriguiging... but other than tht... LURVVVVED IT EVEN MORE!!

on Mar. 4 2010 at 4:53 pm
gabbigale BRONZE, New Ulm, Minnesota
1 article 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
" Only on Wednesdays" - Ian....In general :p

I really enjoyed reading your story. You are very very talented. Im looking forwarded to reading more!