Loving you is like wanting death Ep. 1 | Teen Ink

Loving you is like wanting death Ep. 1

August 27, 2009
By iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
14 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
The bad things happen first,then the good things, then more bad things, then more good things: God helps us through the bad things so we can enjoy the good ones. :)

She tried to strike him with her bare fleshed hand. He grabbed it in mid air. "Would you like to try again?" he asked with a dark smirk across his face. Yes! She screamed within herself. She hated him and everything he did to her. She loved him but hated everything about him. He killed her hope of her father coming back to her. She looked away from the hard-chisseled face that captured her in such a trance many times before. "He will come back. He loves me, which is more than what I can say about you!" I shifted away from him. He crossed his arms and began to sigh. He leaned on the fireplace as i sat down on the piano in the middle of the living room. I shuffled through the sheet music and found a symphony from Beethoven's 3rd. I began to play. my fingers gently touching the ancient piece. I could feel his eyes burning a hole through my head. He who stole me away in the middle of the night just to tell me that my father's return was hopeless and just a fairytale. Yes, I hated him. I suddenly didnt feel the urge to play anymore and finished the symphony with my own made up tune. I gently closed the piano and walked to the door to exit this treacherous place he was trying to keep me captive in. He glided in front of the door and leaned on the handle. His face was now serious and stricken with frustration. "For the last time your not going anywhere. So sit now." he brushed his hand through his black hair and lowered his eyes at me. "Move." I said in a husk voice. It was five in the morning i had no time for this. He smiled well more of a sinical smile then a happy-go-lucky one. Jackass. "Make me." He crossed his arms back in place and began to hum the same tune i played a minmute ago. "You arrogant-" I stopped myself. "Fine Ill move you." I spoke in a low whisper. His eyes fluttered as I moved closer to him. His breath and mine lingered together as we breathed in eachothers scent. I skimmed my lips across his. He backed up. Yeah wasnt expecting that one now were you. I kept repeating that in my head. I had the control not him. He lowered his arms and then grabbed me by the waist pulling me closer to him. His rock solid chest against mine. He bit my lower lip and then devoured my lips with a need that he must have been holding back for all this time. It was our first but not our last kiss.

The author's comments:
I enjoy listening to deep and loud hard rock and love techno and alternative. Speaking as one of MANY girls who wear their hearts on their sleeves, I try to channel my feelings for a person in words, which turns into poems.

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on Sep. 5 2011 at 3:51 pm
zadiekatie23 PLATINUM, Rio Rancho, New Mexico
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Favorite Quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss

This was really interesting, but in a good way! Darkly romantic, frighteningly honest. Yes, I enjoyed reading it; incredible writing!

on Aug. 14 2011 at 6:24 pm
MusicMonster1999, Fort Myers, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”-James Dean

I looked at he first sentence and got hooked,Amazing Job!

on Aug. 14 2011 at 1:55 am
TheGirlWithToManyThoughts, Manchester, Connecticut
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Im in love with this!!!!

on Aug. 14 2011 at 12:05 am
lunalovegood32, Silver Spring, Maryland
0 articles 1 photo 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world, indeed it is the only thing that ever has- margaret mead

hey i love your story so i went to your page to see ep. 2 but i could only find ep. 3 and 4. am i missing something?? please help!

on Jul. 23 2011 at 8:05 pm
Terminal_Laziness PLATINUM, ????, Ohio
40 articles 1 photo 773 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I am not invincible or unstoppable, but I stay strong because it is the only way to survive in this world."

REALLY!!! good story! I loved it! Hey just posted a couple of stories. Could you check them out? Just click my user name and click one of my stories. Thanks! ( Any one can check out my stories if u want too!) :)(:

LovelySerena said...
on Jul. 23 2011 at 9:55 am
LovelySerena, Dededo, Other
0 articles 8 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
Hope is the thing with feathers that perches on the soul. ~Emily Dickinson

I'm such a sucker for romance articles. Keep it up!

on Jul. 1 2011 at 1:24 pm
Kat4ever333 GOLD, Orange, California
14 articles 35 photos 104 comments

Favorite Quote:
I make dark things beautiful and beautiful things dark!
-Kerli I.L.U

please keep writing i loved it

on Jun. 9 2011 at 10:06 pm
Smiley2000 BRONZE, San Marcos, California
4 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
"when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry show life you have a thousand reasons to smile".

Wow that is absolutely incredible. I love this please keep writing!

jazzy13 said...
on Jun. 9 2011 at 9:38 pm
i wished i could write like you! man that was unbeliable! i wish itd be come a book on my book shelf!

MeIsMe18 said...
on Jun. 9 2011 at 3:44 pm
MeIsMe18, Roswell, New Mexico
0 articles 0 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.

i meen if it is a book

MeIsMe18 said...
on Jun. 9 2011 at 3:41 pm
MeIsMe18, Roswell, New Mexico
0 articles 0 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.

this reminds me of a book called Demon in my view. I love that book it's amazing!. I hope you write more :)

on Jun. 9 2011 at 10:01 am
Mz.Minny2011 SILVER, Chicago, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
My fav quote (4now)
When I met you my heart skipped a beat..... the sun became the moon & cold became heat.... Roses weren't red an violetes weren't blue.....And all because i fell IN LIKE WITH YOU <3

the beginning and end of this sound a lot like these books i read. there called Hush Hush n Crescendo. Jus saying........

on Jun. 2 2011 at 9:49 pm
spiritgirl123 BRONZE, Powell, Ohio
3 articles 0 photos 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I love you to the moon and back"

I'm confused as well lol but wonderful description!

on May. 18 2011 at 2:59 pm
sammielovesyou, Louisville, Kentucky
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Favorite Quote:
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew"

what...?? im confused

on May. 18 2011 at 12:47 pm
Mojo4133 BRONZE, Tropy Club, Texas
3 articles 0 photos 30 comments

Favorite Quote:
“It's all fun and games, until someone looses an eye...than it's fun and games you can't see anymore.”
-James Hetfield

Awesomeness. Keep it up.

Bones96 BRONZE said...
on Apr. 4 2011 at 7:28 pm
Bones96 BRONZE, Charlotte, North Carolina
2 articles 0 photos 108 comments

Favorite Quote:
Life isn't about finding yourself it's about creating yourself-

Loved it, are you going to post more? If so I'd like to read it :)

on Apr. 4 2011 at 4:56 am
everything_shane BRONZE, Manila, Florida
2 articles 0 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
Don't rush things. Good things will come to those who wait.

nice..i love the story :)

on Feb. 21 2011 at 12:53 pm
AmandaLee143 SILVER, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
7 articles 0 photos 16 comments

Favorite Quote:
Always Believe :)

Hey I didn't write this story lol but I totally agree with you... I hope she writes more!

on Feb. 19 2011 at 8:15 pm
Rainbowmadhatter, Reno, Nevada
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at was absolutly amazing.

i want more darnit!

will you be writing more?? i sure hope so.

this is the best love hate relationship i have read about in a long time 

u did absolutly fantastic

please put me out of my misery and wondering and write moore...for me


Alise BRONZE said...
on Feb. 19 2011 at 5:26 pm
Alise BRONZE, El Monte, California
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Favorite Quote:
Wisdom is knowing what to do next; Skill is knowing how to do it, and Virtue is doing it.

i really enjoyed this. for a moment there i had a flash back of my own situation similiar to this one. keep it up. i wanna know what happens next. :)