I made a mistake with you

You made me feel safe for awhile

Helped me let me let down my walls

I told you about the past that haunts me

Thinking I was doing something good for myself

Your false “love” hurt me, broke me, made me feel worse

Why did I think I could have you and not let silver kiss my skin

It all bled together

I told you things I can’t take back

Secrets of the night

Secrets hidden in my mind

Things that shouldn’t of been brought to light

Demons haunt my mind

All day, all night

What led me to believe you were so perfect

When truly you're imperfect as imperfect can be

I found you, I had you, I let you go

Now only silver can get me through the night

The water stings my skin

What I thought no one could see, everyone could

My silver was supposed to be a secret

But I let a friend in

It’s spiraled downhill since

Don’t know what to do anymore

In the beginning I was hoping my secret wouldn’t be discovered

Everyone thinks I’m better

How I wish that were true

But silver is my lover again

How I now wish someone would see

Would help me

But it’s gone unnoticed

Will it ever be caught

The broken skin and rigid red bumps

Hiding in plain sight but hidden all the same

Too busy for me or to blind to see

Do I want to be caught or let it be swept away

Blood drips down my stomach

Down my sides

But I’ll suffer quietly

So as not to trouble anybody