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White black girl

November 29, 2014
By MeeSoh SILVER, APO AP, Other
MeeSoh SILVER, APO AP, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"everything extraneous has burned away
this is how burning feels in the fall
of the final year not like leaves in a blue
October but as if the skin were a paper lantern
full of trapped moths beating their fired wings..." -Paul Monette


can i, can i
can I wear this tee

It says that I’m “young black dope
and f***in’ free”
will someone deny it
struggle and fight it
wrestle my blackness
away away from me

 

can i can i
can I call you neg
my father’s as black as
a black man can be
my mom’s got a picture
she don’t keep it with her
I’m flesh of her flesh
but a black fathered me

 

Won’t you won’t you
tear your eyes from me
why are you starin
there’s nothing new to see
all i is wanting
is to stop this tauntin
he may be gone
but i lay my claim on he

 

will you will you
give my right to me
my teacher once told me
identity ain’t free
but i’m tired of fightin
i’m tired of cryin
what do i say to
my momma’s sorrys?

 

I’m a
White, black girl
Honey I’m a
White black girl
Daddy why’d you
leave me no proof, daddy
What do I do now?


The author's comments:

This poem stems from my experience as a mixed race child, and the difficulty of claiming my blackness (and hence, my father) due to the paleness of my skin. It draws on traditional "black" colloquialism as well as the rhythm of slave songs inspired by Langston Hughes' poems. It speaks to the struggle of wanting to claim a certain identity but being hindered by the very thing that you wish to claim: your own body.
The poem ends on a plea to the father figure by the speaker, on a note of desperation. The speaker realizes in the end that there is no answer, no solution, to her question. How can she claim her blackness? She can't.

Also in the last stanza is the acknowledgement of what the speaker truly desires. More than a desire to claim her blackness, the speaker longs for the ability to be her father's daughter. But since he is gone, this too, as well as her right to her blackness, is/seems impossible. 


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