Forever is a very long time
But that didn’t trouble us, not then
Forever is a very long time
I wish I could believe in forever again.

We shared our clothes, we pinky swore
We fit each other like a worn pair of shoes
If one of us was holding back
The other always, always knew
All the secrets, all the weekends
Playing in the woods for hours
Throwing on our fancy dresses
To dance in sudden summer showers
We called each other sisters
We signed our e-mails bee-eff-eff
Dressed like twins and talked alike
But these days what is left?

Those childhood Best Friends belong
To a different time and place
Your laughter sounds so forced,
I can hardly look you in the face.
There’s a wall of ice between us
That doesn’t melt away
I lie about my curfew
because I do not want to stay.
I try to talk it through
My words fall on deaf ears
Do you purposely tune out
Because you do not want to hear?

You can’t tell anymore
When I’m holding back tears
Or am wishing I were somewhere else
You leave me to my fears.
We used to be so open
Now I censor what I say
And your carefully crafted sentences
make me want to run away.
I keep my deeper secrets safe
My faith in you is broken
We’ve chatted lightly for an hour
But neither has truly spoken.

I listen to your agonies
And sigh in sympathy
Is it really too much to ask
To do the same for me?

Maybe I am in the wrong
Maybe I over-react
But I know your back-handed comments
You only pretend to retract
I know you secretly blame me
And I secretly blame you
Perhaps this is one winter
Our friendship won’t live through

Is a decade of togetherness
Enough that we could endure
This monotony of nothingness
For the sake of what we were?
All the sunlit memories
I cling on to, and yet
Feel them binding me to you
And wish I could forget.
I take a deep breath
Turn my back on all the years
With your bitter laughter
Still ringing in my ears.

Forever is a very long time
But that didn’t trouble us, not then
Forever is a very long time
I wish I could believe in forever again.