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The Lies I've Told

February 10, 2023
By StrongMama GOLD, New Braunfels, Texas
StrongMama GOLD, New Braunfels, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Everything I need to be is me because that is all I've ever been.


I have these voices in my head telling me what to say.  

When I wanna tell the truth, they steer me the wrong way. 

I try telling them to go away, but I end up dying inside

I try opening up to the friends I have around me, but they pull me back in.

Taking back my wheel, turning me around making me say the wrong things. 

When I wanna say yes they make me say no.

When I wanna tell the truth they make me spit lies. 

Oh those lies, they're slowly killing me.

Help! I'm crying inside.

I feel like I'm being pulled into a web of lies. 

I can't escape my fate. 

These voices are booming in my head.

They make me want to run away.

They make me wanna hide from the outside.

 But I rise... and I try... to stay happy for those around me. 

These voices in my head are killing me away.

These voices in my head are driving me crazy. 

I don't know what to do with all this yelling in my head. 

Screaming, bickering, telling me what to say.

Who's right, Who's wrong, I don't know anymore? 

What's this a new image and why won't it go away? 

I'm suffering, dying, My mind is exploding.

Nothing gonna help me from falling to my doom.

Nothings gonna stop me from spinning that wheel of lies.

I don't know what to do. 

Should I give in, should I give up.

I need to find a way out. 

I need to know right now.

Somebody help me. 

I'm falling into the pits of hell

Somebody help me. 

I'm falling deeper into the devil's grasp. 

Please somebody help me. 

Help me talk it out. 

Help me win my fight.

Don't help me I got this figured out 

Don't help me I'm winning my war 

I'm fighting

I'm winning 

I'm trying to rise above all the pain

Watch me push it all away

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Watch me make it to the top

Watch me do it with the family that still cares

I don't need some plastic b*tches help.

I only need my father so don't lay down your life for me

B*tch you can leave this world, haven't you damaged me enough.

I'm gonna make it without you.

So go ahead, walk away and leave me in the dark.

From the darkness, I will rise

When I make it to the top just know that you didn't help me.

You were never there.

The only thing you did was talk down to me.

Little did you know I used those words for motivation. 

Just look at me now. 

Just look at what I've accomplished.

Don't come back, keep your distance, and when you're gone just a pile of ash or extra fertilizer for the group just know I won't care.

Because you were always my biggest enemy 

Mother 

The one who made me lie

The one who ruined my world

The one who's broken my mouth 

Making everything I say a lie


The author's comments:

It took me a while to come to terms with that fact that I'm a compulsive liar and I continue to lose people because of my broke mouth. I trying so hard to tell the truth but it doesn't always come out that way. But recently I've been able to catch myself and say " I'm sorry that was a lie, and this is my truth."


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