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OCD and Me

May 11, 2018
By Ally338 GOLD, Sterling , Virginia
Ally338 GOLD, Sterling , Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."-Christopher Robin to Pooh


On Monday, my friend said “Oh my god, I’m so OCD. I 
Can’t stop thinking about that cute guy!” She
Didn’t stop to think of the lies in her words
Of course she would be one of the thousands of people in the world who misunderstand mental illness
Certainly she would act like OCD is something to have a lighthearted girl-chat about
Degradingly she would assume that I don't struggle every single day
Overcome with unwanted images and
Concerned that I'm going to kill someone if I don't wash my hands well enough and
Drowning in the massive sea of anxiety that fears massive
Ocean tidal waves and fatal
Car accidents, shootings that lead to
Death and death and death and more than anything all I want is
One day were my brain isn’t overcrowded by the
Colliding voices in my head, my tiny rational voice that cannot be overheard because of the
Demons that plague me
Ominously they say you
Can’t control us
Do this or the world will collapse
Open yourself up or there will be
Consequences,
Don’t forget to be vulnerable and
Only I can save my loved ones by
Countlessly repeating how much I love them
Desperately trying to prevent
Occurrences that my OCD tricks me into thinking I have any
Control over, my mind plays
Dangerous games that society plays as casually as monopoly, if it’s okay to say “oh my god I’m so OCD”, then can I say
Oh my god I’m so cancery?
Crap, there goes that AIDS again
Damn it, I’m just so anorexic
Oh I can’t? Then how
Come no one takes the raging war of mental illness seriously? Why do people Diminish those words? Since when is
Overpowering fears and being strong enough to battle its sharp swords not an accomplishment?
Come on, we can be better than this
Don’t act like OCD is not a serious issue
Open up your hearts and
Care, quite
Disregarding us and swatting the topic away like flies
Offer your respect,
Consider caring enough not to make mindless comments about something that you clearly do not understand
Design a future in which I am understand
Own up to your ignorance
Cut the crap of thinking that mental illness is not as important as other issues, it’s not
Dismissed
Overlooked
Cute-boy-chat
Disorder, it’s
Obsessive
Compulsive
Disorder, and it’s
Overshadowed,
Camouflaged, and
Damn real



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