As the day quickly approaches,
many decisions are awaiting.
Where will I go?
What will I do next?
Can I do this by myself?
Many stressful questions,
quickly need an answer.
As I lay back and think,
This can wait until tomorrow.
Until tomorrow turns into next week,
next week turns into next month,
and next month turns into the week of orientation.
I am out of time.
My parents knew this would happen,
but the thing is,
I didn’t mean to.
As they stand there all worried about me,
I am wasting my time doing something not as important as this.
Graduation is right around the corner,
and I have made zero progression.
I wish I could go back and redo everything,
but it’s too late
and I can never forgive myself.
I guess I am scared to move on,
and make these decisions on my own.
I don’t want to go my separate way.
I am afraid to see what happens.
With my relationship,
my friends,
even my family.
Will they forget about me?
Will they ever talk to me again?
Will they ever want to see me again?
This is the part of me that struggles.
This is the part of me affecting my decisions,
and yes, I know I should not let it,
but it’s all I can think about.
These people are important to me,
and if I lose them,
I do not know what I would do.
But I need to grow up,
and a part of growing up involves decision-making.
If these people do not respect my decision,
are they even worth being in my life?
I guess I will find out.