I tried bending your fingers backward so you could no longer torture me with me your weird way of showing love
But I was a failure
Instead, you started torturing me with your eyes and your hands and your lips that were so soft
You hypnotized me with your words and made me believe that you loved me
You teased me with your abs and punished me when I looked
You made me believe that you were here to help and that you wanted me to get better but all along you were leading me on, you were taunting me and making me weak so you could control my mind with the looks you gave me 
You never cared about me, you just wanted me to follow you around like a lost puppy so I could eventually believe everything you told me was right, probably leading me into a life of druggies and alcoholics
I never once turned away from you, I never left your side, I stayed by it even when you yelled at me and when you told me to just leave you alone so you could facetime your main hoe because we all know now that I was just a side hoe you pretended to give a f*** about
You were slowing strangling me with the words you threw at me
You threw them so gently as if they were roses and you somehow made me believe they were roses without thorns but obviously you were a good liar because the thorns ended up in  my heart
You slammed your lies on me like they were plastic knives that you expected me to dodge,
You ran me over with the semi truck that you thought was your hugs
You starved me with your eyes that seemed to always shimmer
And you drowned me in false smiles that covered up your master plan to attach my foot to an anchor while we swimming
You radiated me with your breath that smells like flowers until the poisonous words came out
Every time I hear someone talk about how they are in love I think of your voice slowly giving my spine splinters as I choose to believe that you're just cracking my back because of my scoliosis
Your face creeps its way into my mind driving me back to the good old days when you'd hold me in your arms and throw me around the pool,
Just the memory of your hand in my hand takes me into a place of ease and calmness,
And I hate you for it because the last time we were holding hands you were probably getting booty pics from pepperoni face
I've met someone new and I'm happy with her but every time I go to let down the wall that I had to rebuild over and over again because of you I can not seem to find my way to the bulldozer,
You have blocked my passage to happiness and taken away the choice for me to be free
You've trapped me in a world full of flashbacks and memories that I no longer want to live in
And you have taken my glasses so I can not see who is truly doing this to me, making me turn myself inside out trying to figure it out
I’ve bent myself backward for you too many times, and all I got in return is sickness
No wonder you could never diagnose me with a disease,
you were what was killing me