Some places are stained now
Some people too
And it’s your fault
The places are easy to avoid
People aren’t
Especially when I'm one of them
I’m stained with memories
Most I want to forget
Because of you
You weren’t good for me
And I’m glad you left
I couldn’t be myself around you
And I fear for the other people I care about
Who stay around you
You are ignorant
Not thinking before you talk
Always arguing with me
Insulting the things I care most about
Let me tell you a secret
You weren’t one of them
You are arrogant
Always thinking you were right
Always surprised when you offended me
What did you expect
Me to fawn over you
When you say something I disagree with
That’s not how I work
But I didn’t want to hurt you
So I held my tongue around you
I held my tongue so much
It started to bleed ink down a page
You cut out my lungs
When I was still breathing
Whenever you would speak
I would wait with baited breath
Trying to pick up your broken pieces
You would leave behind
But I got tired of being your maid
I was happy
But just because you’re happy
Doesn’t mean you’re satisfied
And I became neither
You acted like you wanted help
And that I was the only one who could
But I couldn’t
I didn’t want to anymore
Because you were starting to drag me down
Into a hole you dug for yourself
Just so you could have company
You took advantage of me
Using yourself
To trap me
In something I wasn’t happy with
Why did you think that was okay
To lock me in a house
That felt more like a jail
I didn’t want to be with you
I don’t like you anymore
You regret trusting me
Which I find funny
You used to say I was the only one you could trust
I regret every time I said yes to you
Especially the first time
If I just said no
Then none of this would have happened
This mess we created
Wouldn’t have existed
I breathe the air of the present
But live in the past
Which is a habit I need to stop
Because it’s killing me slowly
Just like you were
With every word that would tumble
Out of your toxic mouth
Especially the “sorrys”
If you are so “sorry”
Then why even say it in the first place
Especially to me
You should have remembered from the last 50 times
Saying things like that offend me
I’m sorry for keeping my mouth shut
For treating you like a baby
Oh… wait
It’s because you act like one
You act like a child
Who still needs their mother
But I’m putting you up for adoption
Considering grudges are a fun thing to hold