What if I disappear ?

Stuck in the darkness with all my fears.
The negative things in my mind is all I can hear.
Now and then,
You might see me drop tears.
Cause in the real world,
Nobody cares about your feelings.
You can tell a whole person your lifestyle,
But they will never feel what you feeling.
So I keep it hidden.
Plus in my eyes,
It’s nobody’s business.
But a girl can only hold so much,
So it won’t show, I keep my distance.
What if I disappear ?
No one will remember my existence.
You only live one,
But sometimes I feel like life isn’t worth living.
Because if it was,
I wouldn’t have thoughts like this.
Like I’m ready to leave everything behind
No matter what it is.
What if I disappear ?
Nothing will change.
Fake tear drops at my funeral.
But only mom’s feels the pain
Of her baby girl gone forever
Until they meet again.
So what if I disappear ?
Will it even matter ?