I am a 10 in a picture and I am a six in real life
I spend all of my time ruining lives
I use the opposing gender to lead them all on
I stand tall where I am to pretend I am strong.
I am not though, strong
Such a simple word isn’t it
It makes people think they’re better
because their soul and minds are living it
I am a contradiction I always have been
Making friends just to be alone again
I can’t be understood but I am also so read
Thinking of the times when I got lost in my head
I am contradicting in the words that I say
I love you, I hate them but at the end of the day
I am kind and I am loyal because what else do I have
I have myself and my words and my contradictions.
I want to be loved but I can’t risk your safety
Your kindness, your greatness, your mind and your beauty
Though I am contradicting you still are here,
I sit waiting for the day you disappear 
And now you can’t leave because it’s been far too long
and if you leave now all the hope will be gone
the hope I have to end the sadness and end the madness
and end the scared, ugly, contradingness of me.
I am a contradiction, and now you are too.