Calling, Calling
I desperately call out
to
the people around me
When I feel
helpless
alone
But all I hear
All I receive is
silence
No matter how loudly
or how often
I call out
The answer is
Always silence
I don’t know
what to expect anymore
Should I keep trying to
reach out?
Or should I
wait for the people to
reach out to
me?
Should I
Should I
give up?
Should I
Should I
not care anymore?
But I can’t
No matter how many times I try
I just
can’t
Is it
hope
that keeps me from giving up
Is it
courage
that keeps me from backing out
Is it
perseverance
that keeps me moving on
No I
Think it’s just that
I can’t
I can’t give up
I can’t stop caring
Because I know
that there is too much
So much more
that I can’t miss out on
But sometimes I wonder
Is it fear?
Am I just
too
scared to
Suffer the
consequences of
giving up
of
not caring
I desperately call out to society
to relieve
me from
my seemingly never shattering
fragility
But all I receive is
The requirement to
change
To become other than what I am
Can I do that?
Can I change?
Can I
Can I
Ameliorate
Ameliorate my defects my
Oversight my
Self
Can I
Can I
Rectify
Rectify my past my
Mistakes my
Self
I have tried and
tried
But I just
Can’t
Does this exclude me
from the joys
That others experience
from the freedom
that others can
enjoy
I think so
Will there ever be
change?
Can I ever
reform
Reform from this
Weak
insecure
untrustworthy person
that I am claimed to
Be that I
Am
Can I
Should I
Can I
Should I
I
desperately call out
to the world
to keep me from falling to
keep me from staying
down
But all I receive
Are pushes over
the cliff
I pick myself back up
I try again
Only to fall
and get back up
Will the time come when
I stay down
Never get back up
Am I simply too weak to
keep myself from falling?
I think so
I will fall
I will get up
or
I will fall
Fall and
never
get
back
up