Could you check my pulse to see if i’m alive?
Cause lately, i’ve felt like i”m dying.
I’d be lying if I said I was okay.
I can’t remember what happened yesterday.
Lately, my life has just been a blurry haze.
Could someone please check my pulse to see if i’m alive?
Cause really, I don’t wanna die.
I’ve been broken and bruised all my life.
Only to realize it tonight.
And don’t you dare say I don’t know my thoughts and feelings.
Cause you don’t know it all.
You don’t know anything about me at all.
Could you see if my smile is fake?
Cause I feel like a mistake.
A disgrace.
No, I can’t handle you yelling in my face.
Cause i’m already breaking, you’ll make it worse.
Could someone please reverse this curse?
A spell put over me.
These feelings inside me.
They scream.
Is this all just a dream?
One crazy dream that deceives me to believe all these things.
It can’t be true.
This IS a dream.
It has to be.
Am I really?
If I am, could someone pinch me so I can feel reality?
Cold, hard reality that just stands in front of me.
Just waiting.
Waiting for my arrival so it can take me.
Cause what i’m believing and thinking cannot possibly be real.
It’s too happy.
This dream is too happy.
It can’t possibly.
This can’t possibly.
I can’t possibly.
Be happy.
For once.
Does my heart really beat this beat?
Am i asleep?
Dreaming possibly?
Or is reality just a nightmare?
So my dreams are very sweet.
And my reality is on repeat as I sleep.
And dream of this wonderful place.
Or maybe it’s opposite.
Maybe my dreams are reality.
And maybe my nightmare, which I think is reality, is when i’m asleep.

Pinch me if i’m dreaming.
Wake me if i’m sleeping.
Check my pulse to see if i’m alive.
Reverse this curse.
Show me reality.